Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Glee Meets Mark Kanemura

So, I don't know how many of you are professed Gleeks out there but they had a special treat on this past Tuesday; an episode based on Brittney Spear's tunes. Now, if you've read my blog before, you know that I absolutely love Mark Kanemura, and he was one of the backup dancers on the show for the song: "Me Against the Music". Check him out...both dancing and on the couch...he's fabulous!!!

In Memory of Victor

It seems like everywhere I look, people are experiencing horrible sorrow.  There has been so much loss lately for people I know and even as I sit here in the library, a vigil is going on for two lost women of my town; Jennifer Catcheway and Amber McFarlain. 

Today I found out that one of my students that I taught not long ago in Sandy Bay committed suicide.  I taught him, his sister, and his brother.  Victor was hard for me to reach-he was often withdrawn, quiet, with a bit of a chip on his shoulder.  I liked him but he was one that I just couldn't seem to reach...

The fact is there are lots of Victors out there, but people often don't want to see the issues in their own homes, communities, and homes.  I think people would be shocked to learn that guidance counselling is not a priority for most school divisions, and that positions are being cut.  We have so many hurting youth out there and suicide is one of the main causes of death among teens. 

Maybe for Victor it's too late, but if we start standing up for youth and for youth programs, we may have a better chance of making a difference.

Encouragement, Hope, and Freedom

So maybe finally today I have a valid reason to see hope for the future.  Now when I say that it doesn't mean I don't believe in hope, because I do.  I just didn't want to hope too much because of getting my hopes up. 

Today, I had court for the bankruptcy hearing.  The final verdict?  I am fully released owing no more money.  The truth is I needed to be free in order for Manitoba Justice to accept me for corrections.  It's setting in that I am finally free-and boy, does it feel good.  It feels like I can start planning for the future and setting new goals.  I can see possibilities and new dreams, and I haven't seen that in awhile.

Next step?  Waiting to hear I'm accepted for corrections....

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Sledgehammer Please???

Okay, I really wish I had a sledgehammer.  I'd like to take it to some walls.  I'm beyond frustrated with how life is going at the moment.  Am I angry?  Nope.  If I was, I'd be saying more.  I'm just FRUSTRATED...hence wanting to do some damage.  I like tearing down walls.  I'd also settle for breaking plates.  But I have an appreciation of my dinner plates.  The truth?  I'm too cheap to break plates.  I want to so badly but I see it as a waste of good plates.  Years ago on the news, I saw a bar in Japan that had smashing plates as one of its things to do-I think that's a great idea.  I'd like to go to that bar.

Right now, it's like I take one step forward and two steps back.  I jump through hoops and then get sucker-punched.  I hate it...I keep reminding myself that this time is an excellent opportunity to take some risks and move out of my comfort zone.  I've been out of my comfort zone for a while though.  I wish God would decide to pull the plug and say, "this is where you should be".  Yup...that's my perogative...

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Pet Peeve

So I have a huge pet peeve, but it's not really the other person's fault that they're doing it...

Wanna know my pet peeve?  It's when you're busy doing something on the computer and people keep interrupiting you with constant chatter, either through facebook, email, etc...They can't help it.  They're being friendly, but it's not like you can tell them to get lost...I usually have some friendly chatter first followed by I'm pretty busy right now, can I talk to you later?  You know who has joined the club now???  My mother, of all people.  My mother has learned all about the internet and even has her own laptop.  She's not just the queen of texts now, you can throw in emails and facebook.  Yup, even facebook.  There is nothing sacred anymore... 

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Too much Junk!!

I have been attempting to go through and eliminate what I haven't been using or what's been broken....turns out I have a lot of stuff.  I always knew that, although I've been a lot better of late.  When I was young, I thought everything had feelings, especially when it came to my stuffed animals.  I think it's easy to accumulate stuff, especially as a teacher.  You often don't want to throw things away in case you will need it. 

I dropped a whole bunch of stuff off today at MCC-my trunk was packed and my backseat. I often find it feels good to get rid of stuff, like you're being released from something.  I especially like giving to an organization like MCC because it's a good feeling knowing that you're able to participate in helping someone else out-they do amazing things for the community and the world.

I am definitely not finished.  I'd really like to weed out some of my teaching books, but we'll see where I'm taken on this road.  But in the meantime, I continue to organize despite my office looking like a tornado has been through it (it looks that bad on one half of the room)!

Somebody Can Sure Dance!

So if you get the chance, you have to check out the following video from So You Think You Can Dance Canada...absolutely unbelieveable and the lift is something I have never seen before on any of the shows!  The dancers are Charlene and Jeff and are definitely front runners in the competition!   The clip can be seen through CTV and follow the link below!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

No Internet=No Fun

So in my quest to save every little cent that I can because of tough times, my cutting the internet has really hit me.  Boy is it hard...I don't think I realized how much personal time I spent on the internet.  Yes, I get to go to the local library which I am extremely grateful for.  But when the library is shut down for a week, oh was like being stuck inside for a week when there's a massive blizzard going on.

I'm doing okay.  Had an interview last week, have one tomorrow, so we'll see.  It's been tough...but one thing I've learned is that sometimes you just have to lay your pride aside and ask for help.  If I didn't do that, I wouldn't have made it.  I really didn't think that I was that proud of a person but after all of this and knowing how hard it was to ask for help, that's probably something that I need to continue to work on.