Saturday, April 17, 2010

Graduate School, Here I Come!

So, I've been officially accepted into grad school for my Masters in Special Ed.  I'm ecstatic, a little apprehensive, but all in all, I'm really thrilled.  I want to focus on at risk students, specifically in regards to aboriginal education.  I'm being careful in who I share the information though-I just don't think some would take it well.  I'm not announing it on facebook or even at work. 

Surprisingly enough, my family is 100% behind me-which they wern't for my first two degrees.  It amazes me and feels really good to have the support.  I'll end up staying with my family when I take my classes.  Luckily, the Education Masters' program is set up that it  is weekends so I should never have to feel that I have to choose between going to school and going to work.

I've already applied for two jobs that specifically look for people with these degrees.  The fact is that many people aren't willing to go and get their Masters in Special Ed.  It's rare and because of this, I'm really hoping that I'll hear from one of these jobs.  One seems absolutely perfect for me, but it's term.  The other, while not the perfect dream job in my eyes, is permanent, but it's also with a great school divison that i've worked for in the past.  Both jobs have closed, and while one is government, I wouldn't expect to hear from them for a while.  The other one, well, I'm hoping that I would hear by the end of the week if I get an interview.  We'll see I guess.  Jobs are just starting to be posted now, and I don't plan on moving.  So whatever I apply to, I need to be able to commute to it.  We'll see....I'll keep you posted!

Friday, April 9, 2010


So I'm going to talk about something really  The truth?  I have huge issues with trust.  To me to fully and completely trust someone is rare.  I want to trust but the honest truth is that there isn't one person that I trust with my whole heart.  Now don't get me wrong-there are people I would trust with my life but in general, my faith in people has been shaken.  I've been hurt so much in the past year, heck my whole life, and right now, it's hard to let go completely of that hurt.  Part of it might be that I've been placed under more stress in the last year and a half too, that emotionally, I'm still recovering. 

I'm good at building walls to protect myself, and I've gotten better as the years have gone on.  But I'm not proud of this.  Don't get me wrong-I can become vulnerable in my relationships and I often wear my heart on my sleeve, both in friendships and relationships.  At the same time, that's gotten me hurt but that's who I am.  When I truly trust, it's wow. 

There is one person who knows me far above others, and you know you are.  I thank you for sticking with me through the good times and the bad times.  So many times you've been my rock and your friendship means everything to me.  How I love you!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Petting Zoos, Doc Walker, and Drew Hayden Taylor

So without even realizing it, my quest to do one new thing each month has taken on a life of its own.  I do it now without even realizing it, and I'm happy to be stepping outside of my "box".  You know, I always critisized my family for being happy within the box and never wanting to experience anything new.  I get the box-it's comfortable, it's safe, it doesn't shake the boat.  But that's also not me.  Tell  me not to shake the boat, and boy, I'll start shaking the hell out of it. But my box is cozy, but i'm not content to just be the same.  I like to grow and experience  things and take chances, even as scary as it is. 

I went to the brand new PCU centre for a concert with the girls.  I had a great time rocking out to Doc Walker and Shane Yellowbird.  I have to admit though, I got upset with Shane Yellowbird.  I was standing by the windows trying to get reception for my cell and out he walks. I asked him for a picture and he said sure, but you have to get in line with everybody else. revenge?  Not getting in line.  He ticked me  I'd had my picture taken with him before, but there was no around, nobody had seen him but me, and the nice security guard said he'd take our picture.   I did get in line for Doc Walker as they are Portage boys...and one of them had taught me back in Junior High.  Great guys!

The same day, I had taken my goddaughters Kiana and Dakota, to a petting zoo at our local greenhouse.  It was okay.  Not great as they had brought everything in, but the girls loved it.  I just happened to get some awesome pics too!  We had a sleepover where we decorated eggs, watched The Princess and the Frog, decoated suncatchers, and just had a good time.  I love my girls.  I couldn't imagine life without them now. 

I also got to meet my favorite author this past week, Drew Hayden Taylor.  Oh my goodness, he is funny and easy on the eyes.  It was a pleasure to meet him and to get him to sign his new book, Motorcycles and Sweetgrass.  I've never met one of my favorite authors before, and this had a lot of meaning.  I don't know-I really connect with what he writes.  He makes sometimes understand things that I didn't understand before and I like that.  If you haven't read him, you have to.  He's absolutely funny and I promise, his books are worth buying!

Anyhow, there's more to write, but it's getting late and I need to get to bed.  Night People